Apparently today is the 14th anniversary of me signing up for wordpress!

I’ll admit I don’t post on here as often as I could or should. I often struggle with coming up with something other people might consider interesting. I feel as though I should be posting something thoughtful or interesting or funny, but then I think that’s all subjective and are people really all that interested in what I have to say?

There are plenty of bloggers out there who have better writing styles, who seem to be able to collect their thoughts more coherently than my ADHD verbal diarrhoea style of writing, which I imagine can sometimes be quite hard to follow.

I’m also aware I’m just another voice talking to (mostly) themselves on the the Internet, in the vague hope that someone may occasionally stop by to listen (or read in this case), for even a short while, as we make our way through the dopamine chasing maze of the modern day Internet/Social Media.

I don’t know if I’m setting too high a bar for myself, by thinking I need to be blogging something profound every time I post, or thinking I need to be some great orator to be accepted or taken seriously.

I am sometimes tempted to post just to vent what I’m feeling, but I worry those posts might really turn up the incoherent rambling to the maximum, as in typical ADHD/autism fashion I’m not very good at being able to describe how I’m feeling. Sometimes all I feel is blank.

(I just googled it and the term is Alexithymia, apparently it is a common Autism co-occuring condition.)

If anyone has any advice I would certainly appreciate it. I feel as though I ought to post more here but I’m intrigued by what would people actually want to read or if I should be a bit more comfortable with talking to the void of the Internet.