My sleeping had initially got better when I first started on anti-depressants,but that would appear to have just been a placebo effect because I have gone back to not sleeping well it’s currently 1:51 am and I have been tossing and turning for over an hour now.

Quite honestly I’m a bit bored of going to sleep at 2 am and then waking up several times during the night.

After almost 3 months on these pills I don’t feel any different about myself or how I see my life going, I have thought about suicide quite often in the last 11 weeks, although I can never seem to bring myself to actually do it.
I keep thinking what would be the point, who would care if I did it? In my mind the answer to that question would be no-one. I always think that the world would be better off without me, it’s not like I make any difference, or mean anything to anyone.

I often wonder who reads my blog posts or who cares? I guess I won’tknow the answer to that. Ok rant over I’m beginning to feel a little sleepy so hopefully I’ll drift off soon.